WANTED: Ice cream

I was eating ice cream with my friends and I remembered my favorite ice cream growing up, it was, “Heaven in a Bar.” My dad always buy me Heaven in a Bar every pay day. It’s like a Haagen-Dazs stick bar, only cheaper, I guess, I was young! I can’t recall. Haha! So yea, I remember every time I eat ice cream, I always ask my friends about that brand, and they fail me every time. And now I decided to look for it in the Internet and introduce my favorite ice cream to my friends, and once again, it failed me. There was no such thing! And I’m like, I grew up thinking that damn ice cream was called Heaven in a Bar and now, after more or less 15 years of existence, I found out the ice cream didn’t exist! What is it called then, huh? Help me find that ice cream, I want to prove myself that it existed! When I was a kid, I always confuse reality with my dreams, I hope I wasn’t dreaming when I was eating Heaven in a Bar, because it is heaven in a bar! <3

P.S. It looked a lot like this. Please help me find it.

Hahahahaha! I just had to post it here! I shot this one myself! :DD

“Marriage is a type of relationship where one person is always right; and the other one is the husband.”

This is Sofitel. Yes. That fancy hotel beside Philippine Convention Center. We’ve been there. Envy us. :P

A way of satisfying one’s craving.

Depressed? Eat chocolate.

And It’s GOOOOOD.

It actually made me feel a heck of a lot better. Thank you :)

(via saveabedsleeptogether)

I may be powerless, but I am strong.

AND YES. I HAVE DEACTIVATED MY FACEBOOK ACCOUNT — temporarily, at least. Hopefully I can stay sane for a week or two. 

I don’t write much, ae? I only write when I have stories to share. Stories that ruins my life, that breaks me in pieces. This is my defense mechanism, I don’t which one, though. (and it’s ironic. when I have paid my utmost attention to the professor and yet no retention)

These past few days had been a disaster! Let me take you back, 3 days ago…

January 14, 2010 Friday

It was Friday and it was the last day of our midterm exam, hallelujah! And I had a dentist appointment at 2:30 in the afternoon because my tooth hurts real bad, but that’s another story. Don’t worry I’ll talk about cavities soon, since I will have plenty of time to waste. And so, I asked “Papasok ka pa ba? Kasi 2:30 yung schedule ko. 1 papunta na ko dun para hindi ako malate.” It was 11:00 pm. Then, she answered, “Hindi ko alam eh, may exam kasi ako..” Being the good girlfriend that I am, I encouraged her to stay in school and I’ll go to the dentist alone. The conversation went on until 1:00. It was time for me to leave, and then she told me “Susunod nalang ako dun pagkatapos ko magexam, susunduin kita.” I said yes.

I came to the clinic, had my teeth done, and I finished earlier than expected. I have done some chores just to kill time and wait for her to come, but the “fetching” never happened. I asked her to meet me at some place else, she answered yes. From Bicutan, I traveled back to Pasay to that place that we were supposed to meet. And guess what, she came in late. In a matter of minutes, I forgave her.

We did good, been very well. Until she mentioned that party happening Saturday night. I rode along while she was telling me this party of her 2 friends celebrating their birthdays together. I was nodding and smiling sarcastically all through. But she forgot one little tiny detail, to ask permission. I was waiting for a “can-i-go?” statement, but it never came out. Of course I got disappointed. And you know what’s more sad? She never asked me to come with. I know it’s not her party and all, but just have the decency to ask if I wanted to come, since they are my friends now too.

To cover up for my disappointment, I asked her to fetch to me the next day (Saturday). She said, yes, most probably. And when we were kidding and joking around, I had a slip of the tongue. I said “Woo. Wala ka namang kwenta eh.” In a very jolly manner. Then we went home.

That statement meant nothing to me, it was an honest mistake. Maybe because I expected too much from her that I got very disappointed and uttered those words. Right there and then, she became cold. I asked what’s the matter, she said she’s not feeling well. Very well I said. And the last thing that I can remember, it was Saturday already. 

January 15, 2011 Saturday

I asked her if she can fetch me from school today, she said no. She will be coming home, to prepare for that party. Then I asked her again, “What’s the matter? Why are you acting so weird?” she answered, “Masama pakiramdam ko.” Okay, so you’re not feeling well, then why go to that goddamn party? And she answered defensively, “Magtatampo yung mga yun kung hindi ako pupunta.”

And I said to myself, “Eh sakin, hindi mo maiisip na magtatampo ako?”

After class, it was raining really hard outside. Like really hard. Unfortunately, the luck of the Irish, I didn’t have an umbrella with me. Then I texted her to fetch me to school because I can’t get home due to this really heavy rain, and NOT to my surprise, she gave me all these excuses not to fetch me. Why not just say that you don’t want to?

Good thing I have these 2 friends that love me very dearly and volunteered to escort me home. I wasn’t in the mood to talk to her then, so I didn’t answer her messages. When I got home, I received quite a number of texts from her asking me why aren’t I texting. When I got into my senses, I replied “Kakauwi ko lang” And NOT to my surprise again, she got mad. “Ganun katagal? Hindi ka magtetext man lang?”

I explained to her how hard it is to find a ride home. She didn’t believe me. I sent a couple of text messages when she’s not answering only to receive “Sige. Wag ka magtext.” Who the hell are you trying to trick? Nobody but yourself you dumb piece shit. 

We fought until the day ended. Next thing that I can remember, it was Sunday, and I have school.

January 16, 2011 Sunday

Woke up at 5:30 in the morning. I received a text message. The conversation went this way

her: “Hindi ako makatulog.”
me: “Bakit?”
her: “Bakit gising ka?”
me: “May pasok ako. Ikaw bakit gising ka?”
her: “May pasok ka? Ganto kaaga?” — it was 6:00 am. classes start 8:00 am. what time did you want me get up, 8?? 
me: “Ayokong malate eh.”

—- end of conversation.

Next text message came 11:00

her: “Nakatulog ako, kakagising ko lang”
me: “Kala ko ba hindi ka makatulog?”
her: “Eh inantok ako eh.”
me: “Nung nakausap mo na ko nakatulog ka na?”
her: “Eh inantok na nga ako, anong magagawa ko?”
me: “Sige:
her: “Matutulog ako.” — it was 12:15
me: “Kakagising mo lang ah?”
her: “Eh inaantok ako eh”
me: “Sige.”

—- end of conversation. 

No text since then until, 5:30

“Kala ko ba binura mo na si len?”

Yes. I deleted her already. You were sitting next to me when I did that you dumb animal. I never knew that she’s on my friend’s list. As crazy as it sounds, it’s true. She went berserk! I texted 2 people whom I know was online at that time. I asked them to find Lhen Delos Reyes for me and delete her from my list. The two of them gave me the same feedback “No such here.”

I explained myself to her that I’m innocent and I’m not doing anything wrong. And guess what response I got?

“Hindi sinasadya? Tanginang sagot yan.” “Imposible yun eyxa.”

How can you possibly say those words to me? That was foul. For that lame reason you’ll curse me? For something that I didn’t even do?

And I wondered how the hell can she say I have Lhen as my friend when she’s not on my list anymore? The minute I got home I opened Facebook. I searched Lhen, no results found, I checked my list again, and there she is named Amaya Delos Reyes. I didn’t even know it was her, that she changed name! And got cursed for something I wasn’t aware of? How crazy is that.

This is my f*cked up story. My f*cked up life.

Broken into pieces, shattered into parts.

I have parted of the world and decided to live alone of a week. To find the lost me. The one who loves thyself.

We let the dog out :D He sat at the front seat, so yes, we sat on the back. Haha! Half way through the ride, the lazy dog feel asleep. Cute. :)

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